心情就像坐 roller coaster~ Part I

停了好長的一段時間沒有寫 blog, 因為總是理不出情緒來好好寫,
當初 created 這個 blog 的心情也已經忘了是啥了,
而停了這麼久又為什麼在今天有股衝動想寫呢?
其實自己也不是很清楚.. 可能是看了好幾個月前, 那篇關於心情沮喪的文章吧!

試了一陣子, 在寒假的時候, 意外地, 很順利地, 只吃了一次排卵藥就成功了,
還記得剛開始由於基礎體溫一直都不高, 還和 Bessie complained 說藥沒有效,
怎麼知道, 其實小小的小 baby 已經在肚子裡頭快速地細胞分裂著!
當 3/12 日驗孕棒上呈現陽性反應時,
情緒是複雜的,
沒有預期的狂喜, 當然也不是悲傷,
現在回想, 那是叫作 "不可置信" 吧...

3/17 開始, morning sickness 就出現了, 真準, 六個星期,
大家說/書上說/網路上說/doctors 說, 會開始有症狀的時候, 就開始了,
剛開始只是上課有隱隱作嘔的惡心,
沒想到在春假期間登上高峰, 被迫在家裡休養了一個月,
過著每天望著馬桶吐的日子...

Week12, 開心地回去上班, 除了因為 sickness 已漸漸消失, 味蕾的感覺變正常, 胃不再脹氣這些生理的喜悅之外, 心理上也漸漸地接受, 也相信, 過了 critical 3 months 之後, everything is gonna be wonderful and I can start planning BIG for my baby..

I came up with baby's name..
Hayden if a boy
Amelia if a girl

I looked up the web and searched info for strollers, cribs, car seats...

I also noticed some very interesting changes.

I suddenly become so addicted to the Korean soap Opera "宮",
I was so crazy that I had to watch the highlights everyday for 3 weeks in straight,
I even got on youtube to watch all the shows related to 宮, and really think that the male leading actor is so handsome that even when I mentioned him to my colleague, I blushed.

I blushed so often in the class when I made some silly mistakes.

I looked for snacks to eat all the time.

I'm so into "carbon" stuff.. I am so into potatoes.. I guess that's my biggest craving.. the thing I'll never think of eating when I'm not pregnant.